Reflection 3.1
I have been humiliated quite a few times in my life. It mostly happened in the age of junior high and maybe even my freshmen year. It happened while on free time or out on lunch. During these times we would always go out and play basketball or football. We did the usual two captains who pick their team one by one. I was pretty athletic in these days but wasn't always seen as such because of my size. All through school I was really never skinny but still very athletic. So people would look at me and just assume since I was bigger that i would be terrible person to put on their team. So what was humiliating to me was being picked almost last every time. I am a competitive person and I took this as a challenge but it still hurt my feelings to know that just because of my size I was not a good athlete. This would always make me feel awful because I felt helpless and it wasn't something I could change overnight. I had really never really said anything to anyone about how I felt. I would just go along and play as hard as I could to try to prove I was better. I feel that no matter how good or bad I did in those games that I still was picked towards the end every time. In reality it is what it is and I just dealt with it but it was embarrassing for me because I thought of myself as a good athlete.
Chad, I know exactly what you are saying. I was also a bigger kid growing up. I can remember playing soccer as a young kid and being so much bigger than every one else. Some parents on the other teams would question my age to my parents and coaches. I can even remember a time when a parent from the opposing team told my basketball coach that I better not hurt their kids. This was really embarrassing. I feel like you, that I have proved my self regardless of my size but I was still profiled.
ReplyDeleteChad, I am really sorry that you had to deal with that misconception from other students as a young person. It is really sad how people have a tendency to look at someones physical appearance and just automatically make assumptions about who they are. I am really glad that you somewhat saw this as a challenge which made you work hard. And I am guessing you might have had some satisfaction when you actually began playing and people realized you could be the go to guy.
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